Up to this moment...

Hey peeps. Its been like everyday already i posted on my blog. Ha ha. I dunno. I just felt like wanna write everytime im bored. Well, im going to have my english paper tomorrow so no need to study that hard. He he. :P

Im actually a bit down right now. I dunno why. Felt like it but still im confuse. I just feel like i wanna go home now. Be with my family. Mummy, daddy, sheirah and bradsley. I miss them. A lot! And of cause, i miss my sweetie too. He's sick now. He got a fever. Poor baby. I wish i was there with him. To look and care for him. Hug and kiss him and let him know that i care. Sms and calling is just not enough for me.

Like i said in my previous post, Mario is going to have his convo in just a couple of weeks from now. I really wanna go. Im proud of him. He has done his best. No fails and no repeats. I wanna be there to give him flowers and wish him congratulation but during that time im still going to be in sarawak. My last paper is going to be on the 14th of Nov. So, sadly i can't go and see him receive his Diploma. Ohh well. Thats life bebeh. *sigh*

Talking bout college life, well, i dunno, im still not happy here. Its not like i dont have any friends, i do but none of them truly understands me. Even my roomies, i still cannot talk to them as if they were my bestie. Its not their fault, its mine. Im not good at this being so friendly thing. Sometimes i feel too shy even saying a word or two. I get hesitated around people. Thats my problem. I dont have the guts to talk to anyone. But seriously if you knew me well enough, im very bubbly. I like to talk. But since my arrival here in sarawak last year, i've change. I turned to this little shy girl and im always end up being lonely. Right now, i like to be alone so that i dont talk bad things about people. Cause everytime people who annoys or irritates me, i'll be talking s**t bout them. I know im no angel, i know im no perfect but it comes naturally on me. Maybe thats why i dont have any friends. I do but just a few. I love the few ones. They're nice. Seriously, i miss my high schools friends. They're just the best ever. I love them more! :)

What more, urm, oh yeah, since this moment, i have at least 825 friends in my facebook friends list. I got the chance to know a few good people who are being devoted in commenting my status all the time. Ha ha. Nawhhh.. They're just a few guys. I guess. But yeah its fun. Well, there's this awkward thing for me tho. All the ex's also added me as their pal. Even my hubby's ex. I dont like her. I still dont after what she did last time. Even tho she's married but i still got this angry feelings toward her and of cause i hated her. She's such a bitch. Im just pretending to be nice but i know its not good. I got my revenge already. She got into an accident last month and broke her legs and the pity part is she lost her baby. She'd almost ruined my relationship last time. Thank God she failed. Okay, so im gonna stop talking bout her cause i hated it when i think about the past. Im still scared. :(

So, even all my ex added me there. They've been nice to me. Asking me bout life and of cause my present relationship. Mario is my first ever serious boyfriend so i dont campare them to him. He's much better than those guys. Hell yeah! So, back to what im saying, they said they were happy for me and bla bla bla. Can i really believe that or what? I dont care actually. As long as they're not disturbing my relationship. But this one guy, yeah my ex too, he said to me this "Hey, lets secretly meet behind your bf and have fun". I was like okay go to hell dude. I love my boyfriend! I'm not a bitch who you can easily fool. Argh! I so hate that guy. Okay so he's a cutie BUT he's also a sex maniac. Seriously! I HATE HIM. Im glad i was sane enough to stay away from him. So i deleted him from my friend's list and no more sex maniac for me. :)

So, i guess i'll write again soon when i got another idea. Toodles! :)

Love always,

Jill :)